This is my last day in Chandler for the next month. I finally chose to take the opportunity of getting better for 30 days, than taking a job I’ve waited over a year for. Simply because I need it. I cannot continue to live my life in the moment. (That’s just plain stupid.) I need a plan for my life, and to truly follow through with it. This is the first time in close to a decade that I’m reaching out for help, & don’t get me wrong I’m scared shitless. It was something that was beyond hard doing. I’ve never really put myself first in any situation, which I’m starting to realize I really should have.. Maybe I wouldn’t be where I am today, maybe I’d still see familiar faces, hear familiar voices. Hell just smile more than once in a blue moon would be somewhat comforting. Nonetheless my point being is; I’m finally doing this for myself. Another 100 feet in this mudded havoc and I’ll be buried 6 feet under before I turn 21. & That’s just the cold reality of things. I’m so much better than all of this and truthfully, I know that. It’s honestly the push that makes one dive is what I needed. A wake up call. So all in all this is my time, my only time to shine.
See you all in June, I’ll be returning a better, happier, healthier Kale. (:
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